I have a Scooby Doo band-aid on my thumb, my legs are in pain, and i am covered in sweat. It was a good night, my first night of actually being a server at my new job. I have to say working there was awesome. It was insanity and chaos all bundled together and i enjoyed every single second of it.
To be honest the entire walk home from that night i was thinking about writing a post about it, telling the entire story but i was faaaaaaaaar to tired to do so that night. Since then i have basically slacked off in every single way possible and i wasn't sure why i was....
It wasn't until several different websites came up while i was using my stumble button and randomly surfing the web that i noticed something. Somewhere in my interests apparently i had included being an introvert, meaning someone who finds social situations taxing and prefers their own company.
It was when i was reading through these things in passing that i realized why i have, well, not really felt the energy to write out the ideas i have had for posts day after day. It was the reason i had so much fun at that single night of work where i was stuck in chaos. Quite simply i am apparently a shy and reserved extrovert.
It seems like a paradox, i know. But the fact is that what makes me shy and nervous is that i am a private person (as i write a post about who i am to be read by whoever they want on the internet...) and as such i don't really feel like sharing who i am with each person i meet.
And i guess that extra effort needed to go out and hang out with people rather than having them all living in the same building, well its like getting to eat really really good food that is made for you every day and then going to res... Not even close.
Meanwhile the mood swings i have gone through recently have shown me something else as well. Depression, it is a topic i tend to have pop up in conversation and in life often. Is it possible that high rates of depression are simply caused by people like me, who don't feel like going out to places each and every night, or have the money to do so, so instead you stay in and miss out on that social interaction which recharges your batteries and gives you that boost.
Just a thought...
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